Sunday, February 26, 2017
Amazing things before Lent...
So this is sort of cool.
The other day, I was near break down levels. The kids were sending me paper airplanes with notes of love and apologies for acting like crazed lunatics - I didn't care. I was over it, and needed some space - big time.
I have no idea what led me to open a certain drawer, but it in I found my deceased moms prayer book. She kept a small photo album type thing with pictures of priests she would pray for, holy cards that people had given her, and favorite prayers to say for specific situations. Also in this book are index cards with handwritten prayer requests. This really is a treasure.
In tiny letters I saw my name on one card, and next to it was her prayer for me.
"Purity and Conversion."
Wow. What was going on in my life at the time, that my Mom's strongest desire for me was to be pure and convert? Yikes. I have no idea, but I am thinking her prayer worked? Maybe? Hopefully?
Now, at 39 years old, I can honestly say that my relationship with God is the MOST important thing to me in my life. I can be stressed about money, stressed about time, stressed about the house looking like a disaster, but I will never be stressed about my God's love for me. It is secure.
That doesn't mean I love him perfectly however. I am constantly working on that. The hardest part for me in that area is loving HIS people. Oh boy, some of HIS people can be really hard to love. Especially the ones living in my house.
But here is the other thing that seeing my Mom's prayer book helped me realized. My job as a parent is ONLY to help my children know how much God loves them. For them to be pure and constantly converted back to GOD. Every household rule, and every standard we set for our kids, really should be to support this supreme goal. How simple it sounds, but so difficult to live.
SO the first thing on my agenda after discovering this book was to get myself one. (Actually my Aunt already did, I just haven't had a chance to use it much.)
The second thing I need to do, is PRAY for my children; constantly. Like immediately and right now.